Alt Goth
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I am so sorry. I apologize to everyone. I don't know what the heck I was thinking. I am not an artist. I don't know anything about art, or photography, or color, or composition, or painting, or anything. For me, this tool began as a simple entertainment to end the endless tedium during the workdays of my boring job. I limited myself to observing other artists' images secretly, as a voyeur and nothing more. But one day I decided to try it, as a kind of hobby first, but as a therapeutic tool later. And now all of this has gone straight into my ego. I have an ego attack. I'm harassing one of the content creators who originally inspired me on one of my other accounts. I'm using Tensor as a kind of chat for particular uses, and now I am offending and trolling, without realizing that many more people are watching me. I'm being annoying. It is something extremely immature and intolerable at my age. And now I am aware that there are many more people here, who are not up to my nonsense. I feel watched and judged when all my life I have tried to go completely unnoticed, without attracting anyone's attention. I am very sorry for the inconveniences. I want to hide underground. I don't understand what happened to me. I am nobody. And now I suddenly feel important, when I've never been important. I upset one of the people who inspired me, because now I have the conceited idea that I have reached a point where I can consider myself a true artist, when I am not, nor have I ever claimed to be. I seek recognition when I don't deserve it at all. In reality, all I do is steal images, ideas and prompts from the people who really work on it. There may be authentic digital illustration professionals who are using this tool legitimately and validly, as part of their profession. While all I do is play and fool around and then show off and feel vain. I am not so! I've never had anything at all to brag about. In this world there are people who came into existence only to be filler. The extras. The npc. I have never been the protagonist of absolutely anything at all in my life. I haven't even felt like a protagonist in my own life. I have always limited myself to looking at people from a distance and from my safe space, without interacting with them. A simple spectator. I already explained previously that I have never had social networks. I don't know how to manage all this likes. And now I'm yelling and begging at a person for a single like. I just realized my horrible behavior and I feel terrible. Now I just want to hide underground! I'm so sorry. I apologize to everyone. I don't know what has happened to me. It is dangerous for your ego to go to your head. The ego is your worst enemy when you don't have one. Sorry.
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